For many of you, the journey with me has been a long and complex road. I’ve had my share of fun, small triumphs, and even a few good books with my name on them. Sadly, for me, the end of the road has been reached. For over 30 years I’ve written stories in many genres, many amateur fan fictions, and from 2004 onward dozens of professionally published works. The past few years have been exceedingly difficult for me in personal terms and it’s effected every aspect of my professional desires and dreams. I had already decided I was burned out on the more erotic romances I had written for the first ten years of my “pro” career, but I still felt I had something to say that would be of interest to readers. Unfortunately, that too proved to be untrue for the most part. All in all, it’s past time to say goodbye.
Many of you know my mom died late in 2015. I’d been her caregiver for years, but always found time to write in the dark hours of the night. It was where my mind found some peace from the stresses of the day. Just over a year ago, I was in a car crash that took even more of my heart from me. I suffered concussion and back injury. While the pain can be controlled with medication and therapy, the lost of my brain function can’t really be dealt with effectively, only time can possibly fix it. I would like to write, I simply can’t do it. Whether the reason is emotional, or the result of the concussion syndrome hardly matters now.
As 2018 approaches, I will be closing some of my sites, releasing my blog domains, and spending a lot less time on social media. I have discovered along the way, the endless negativity that dominates much of the newsfeeds really drives me further away from the creative dreams of new books and stories. We live in dark times, and this should be the perfect time to share stories of love and hope, shouldn’t it?
Business failures aside, I simply don’t feel the passion for writing that I once did. Speaking into a vacuum only dulls that need more, unfortunately. I don’t think this news will surprise anyone who knows me, and doubt even more that it will come as a loss to anyone else, and that’s now okay, too.
It’s been a great adventure. There are still a few things on the coming soon track, but once they are released, there won’t be anything further. Thank you to everyone who’s been on the journey with me, your support has kept me trying to succeed much longer than I might otherwise have spent telling stories. There are lots of reasons for this decision, and I could go on at length, but as a dear friend and editor once told me, I’m too wordy, so I’m keeping it short this time.
May you be blessed, today and always. Happiness, love, and laughter to you all.
You know I will miss you badly. I wish this business had been better to someone so gifted. I understand your need to walk away. I will say a prayer for you that all your health issues be gone forever. Take care hon. You know how much I love you.ReplyDelete
I cannot stop the tears at reading this. Denyse, you have been one of the best friends I have ever had and I have been proud to call you my mentor all these years. Your friendship has meant the world to me. I know we haven't talked a lot since my own life has fallen apart but I love you D, just as much as if you had been my blood born sister.ReplyDelete
I think you are the most classy, kind and beautiful person inside and out I know. I do think there are more people than you will ever know that care and respect you as a writer and person. You have always been the most approachable and have helped so many and I will never forget the friendship we have had. I wish you every bit of happiness you deserve and more. I am going to meet you one day Denyse and I'm going to hug the crap out of you.ReplyDelete
Denyse, you have helped and encouraged me so very much, for as long as we've known each other, back in the days when we were both writing Lonesome Dove fic. I admire you in so many ways, for your friendship, your artistic and writing abilities, your loyalty, and your willingness to share, help, and teach. I really wish we had had a chance to meet in person, but I still treasure our online and long-distance telephone friendship. I hope we can still communicate occasionally, and I pray you be able to keep ties with at least a few other online friends. There are so many of us who value your friendship, and we will all hold you in our hearts, our memories, and our wishes.ReplyDelete
I love you.ReplyDelete
Denise...my heart is with you. I truly understand your pain. What is least surprising to me is how others see you, your kindness, generosity of spirit, who you are to them. Perhaps one day you will find joy in writing again or MAYBE your creative spirit will find an outlet you never before considered. Maybe all that talent and passion inside you will burst out in ways you have sublimated focused so much on your writing...art, crafts, home decor, the world of creative inspiration lies before you to grasp as you let go of something that no longer works for you.ReplyDelete
Love and blessings always,
Not an ending,ReplyDelete
Not a closure,
But a seizure
Of what matters most;
Those who love you,
And those who know you,
Understand that, spread too thin,
The balm of comfort,
Gained from writing,
Becomes less a salve
And more a means of choking;
Less a cure
Than a corset of pain.
Those who love you,
Pray for you,
And hope that:
Less is more.
Be free and be what you need to be, Terry.
I am so sorry, Denyse, as a fellow writer I do understand how hard it is to remain positive in the current literary climate, where readers don't always appreciate the tremendous amount of effort and sheer hard work it takes to produce a novel, and how very small the monetary rewards are these days. When one has personal loss and health problems as well, it is quite understndable that you fee you have had enough. I hope one day you will regain your joy of writing. Meanwhile, think of all the pleasure your writing has brought to others, an achievement not to be brushed aside. My thoghts and payers are with you.ReplyDelete